The Fool

Blindly Vicious & Unrelenting

20/20 Hindsight

There have been a couple weeks where I thought I was getting better. Life is on the fast-track now and theres no stopping it without giving up "the dream".

I walked up to FIT on Tuesday night... frantically searching for building A when I should have been looking for B and even they sent me to C first to get a pass. First day of school jitters, I thought to myself, theres no turning back anyways-- so fuck it. I'm late... thats me. At least I'm here.

After class, I walked outside and got lost looking for the 1 train downtown and I looked up for a moment to see that I was standing under a huge arch that read "Fashion Institute of Technology". I was too tired then to even let it register. All I could think of was getting in my bed.

I've since completely checked in and out of reality and sleep. Stopping home to change and re-read an email that you had sent me back in August of 2010. So sincere, so adamant about sending me to college. You knew how badly I wanted my education. I just wonder how much you would approve of that career being fashion. And how much you would resent that education taking place in the city.

Then I think of what you went through and how I couldn't save you. My only resolution is to carry your roots of sharp simplicity and vengeance with me in my creations. You deserve justice but all I can give you are my hands. I'm going to make it work. The insanity and tears, but most of all, the devotion was not in vain. Just because you're gone doesn't mean a part of you can't reside in this world with us.

I'm clicking the heels of my sparkly red pumps

"Its not going to hurt anymore...

Its not going to hurt anymore

Its not going to hurt anymore..."

And I'm opening my eyes for you now...

Teal Fiend

I'm not completely obsessed, but I am totally digging those mint/teal pants.

Gimme Gimme Gimme!

Man-Beauty Testimony

Meet Nelson Campbell. Um... in love with this dude. I adore his look and I think his way of thinking could adapt or has already taken shape in other parts of the world. Americans...tisk tisk tisk For a country with so much "freedom" we are the first to judge.

He's such a cutie. (You know me and my redheads!)

Vimeo the Video

Embracing a Darkness

Lover's Week-In

I can't wait to be home. T-22 minutes and counting...

Toothpaste: The Beginning

A little something I wrote a few months ago... that I went back to read today... so funny cause yesterday was four months and I still feel the same. :D

'I am crazy happy at the moment; Giddy and cannot sleep. I want coffee and want it to be morning after morning till its Friday morning. And the day to spin faster than the earth till its Friday night. A night to bite my lower lip in anticipation. Listen to our songs on the radio, cause we have so many already. To drive over the Gothels as the sun sets and melt in your arms. Fade in and out of consciousness and kisses. Your warm breath on the nape of my neck. Giggling and kissing and kissing some more.
Oh yea! Its Saturday! Driving down to the beach and spinning in our heads. Nothing matters but our butterflies. Our dizziness calms as the hazey sunlight beats down on our flesh. And your phone pumps House into my head. So long ago and so fresh in our minds. Its our time.

Sunday: Breakfast in the park, petting puppies and people watching. Telling our inside jokes to each other and laughing loud enough where people want to hear what we've said. We are one of those couples that everyone else wants to be. That I wanted to be for so long, and I thought it was never going to happen. I was too tainted from previous loves and likes, that I didnt deserve to be treated like a princess. Like I'm the only woman in the world. I can't honestly say I mind the like-sickness. Its intoxicating. For however long, its all mine.

Monday morning... Waking up to your eyes half wide from sleep and my hair in your face and a smile on your lips. Unable to detach ourselves. I'm driving home over the Gothels. Buzzed from the weekend and sick with want...

...for five days to pass.'

I love you baby! On my way to see you now.... <3

Bull Pin

Where to begin!? Ah, there is so much to discuss, my friends. I have been a busy girl.

First things first, I'm at work... and this will already be scattered, so brace yourself for the A.D.D. ride. Its fun, I promise.

I'm sitting here listening to my new favorite county station as I'm checking the run-through. I think I might be the only girl in the world who feels like that totally fits. Maybe I should be listening to MGMT or Crystal Castles with the new Erin Wasson spread. I just like how the grunge setting in the photos fits the twang in the music. Its perfect! 

Craig and I are taking a trip to VA in one week and 3 or so days! Bet your sweet tooshies I'm ciked! That would also explain the county-kickin' mood I've been in. Two short weeks of work back-to-back!

Everything is slowly but surely coming together in my life. No more crying. No more drama... crazy ex-girls aside, and I'm already wayyy ahead of myself in my head.

I've met the perfect guy, again. Meaning I've known him forever. Fate is funny...

The best part about my present situation, is the fact that I actually feel younger than I used to. I used to be all serious, stressed, and taking things for granted. Like my age. The more aware I become of my surroundings, the more I realize... I'm 23! Bring it on!

I feel just right and that I've totally found my place in the world. For now... Who knows where life will take us?

You heard right... I said "us."

Just because I'm a free bitch, doesn't mean I'm not committed. :D

And he is all the adventure I need.

Weekend Randomms

Sorry for the random and MIA behavior. Its not often I mix personal stuffs with the blog...but I'll be honest: I'm completely and utterly lost in love.

I really wish everyone could feel the way I do.

Thankfully, though, I feel my creativity returning.

So stay tuned for some serious blogging action!

Fave Guy Style Ever!

Its messy and accessorized.

And clean cut.

And most importantly... masculine without reeking of testosterone.

In my opinion, the ultimate in Guy Style!

Brava!

I Heart It

To Let Go

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short


- author unknown


Thank you Le Love!

Timing LeftOver Beats

Oh Edward! Yes.... YES!

Let me make something perfectly clear. The only reason I am coming forth with this obsession confession is because I can't take it anymore. I want my own personal Edward Cullen. He is so deliscious and untouchable, that it drives me mad.

Breathe Heather, Breathe...

I mean COME ON! Look at this face!

God, I just can't take it...

Its the Twilight bullshit that does it to me. Not Robert Pat. Edward.

The way he kisses Bella in the movie, how it drives him to insanity because he wants to devour her.

Why can't that be me!?

Ok, I'm done. Thanks for listening.

Guy Style

Supreme Spring 2010

Our Darling Kate

Just had to let everyone know that I now walk around smelling of sweet Kateness. I finally went out and bought a bottle of her perfume.

I smell of perfection. Its lovely...

Also, some info on things to come for the new year and on upcoming blogs in the next few weeks:

1. Some style dos and don'ts for the dudes ( I didn't forget!)
2. Meghan Fox -my newest and only Idol (all the rest can classify as icons or regular IT girls, which is an awesome title in itself)
3. Nylon news! Is there any other?
4. And of course, BOP BA DA BAAAAAAH! Outfit posts! I have spent quite a lot of time collecting this year and I think as a one year post spectacular, I will unveil my closet!

So stay tuned...

Meet Cedric

He is gorgeous and a photographer, and Parisian.

MMMM... isn't that nice!?

Me likies!

See his work here

His shirt is pretty kick-ass too. Pullin off the jeanwear!

Confessions of a Brilliant Mind

"I am so obsessed with fashion, I say couture instead of culture."

You the Fuckin' Best

When I get right I promise that we gon live it up...

I'm in love with a Brick House

You feel so foreign.

I've been speaking your language for years.